I have so much catching up to do on blogging, everyone has just been turning out some really beautiful stuff, that I am just having a hard time catching up while I am preparing for my own releases! I had a short window this morning tho to indulge my guilty pleasure for shoes! ieQED just released these beauties out at The Collaborative Liaison this round, and the theme was “Minimal Nouveau” and they nailed it! Seriously, the amount of pretty there this round is just mind boggling, so treat yourself to some TLC! (see what I did there?)
Shoes: ieQED savoy.sandal.soft grey/copper – This Round of TLC
Oh yes, yes yes yes yes yes. It is that time again when we shamelessly give into our need for all things Arcade. Just one more pull we tell ourselves, just 50 more… I just can’t even start express how much I have enjoyed this round. A huge shout out to all the designers and coordinators who works so hard to bring this event to fruition, I know it brightens my smile despite the fact it depletes my wallet, you guys rock, thank you for all you do!
My Little friend: *MishMish* Foodies – Le Cupcake -(Arcade this round)
“Riffraff, street rat I don’t buy that If only they’d look closer Would they see a poor boy? No, siree They’d find out There’s so much more to me”
Pardon me while I have a rant blog today, it will probably make no sense, and change direction on a dime.
I think there are a lot of circumstances in my life that cause me to feel like people to look at me like a pariah, like I am something less than. I’m not perfect in any way, I’m not a classic beauty, I’m not the picture of perfect health, I’m not the most successful person in the world, hell, I even miss laundry day some times… I mean there are so many things that I don’t do right, I even let myself down a lot. But what really hurts is that in my real life, other than my immediate household, people don’t see ME, people don’t give me the time of day. Hearing someone whisper to another “Shes an odd one” makes me want to scream at them that I am actually kind of amazing, I would -despite their rudeness- give them the shirt off my back if they needed it, even to my own detriment, I would give my last breathe to a friend if it meant they could live, I love deeper and harder than should humanly be allowed. And yet some how, this has made me “Odd”, being some one who wants nothing more than for everyones life to be filled with beauty and love. People are so quick to judge because they see ONE thing they don’t like and they let that ONE thing define an entire being. How can they not see that we are so much more, that if they only took the time to sit and talk they would find a bit of themselves in us.
I may not be perfect, I may have a lot of chips and cracks, but I am worth a deeper look, I am worth loving.
Outfit: .:Wimey:. Captive Princess (Royal Purple) @ The Fantasy Collective
Shoes: fri. – Lizzie.Slippers (Red) @ The Seraphim Social
I haven’t really written a whole lot since my break, I guess I am just not really sure what to say yet. I feel like if I did say anything it would just be sad, or emo in general and really those kinds of thoughts are my burden to bare, not yours. But things are looking up, really, and that’s good. I am starting to smile and laugh and be moved by things, I am finding beauty in sadness instead of just more sadness. I am finding purpose in my struggles and where others have given up I keep forging on. There are times when I do feel my self slipping a little but my friends, my amazing, loving, ass kicking friends have been there to take my hands and pull me up before I fall completely. I am glad to be blogging again, I didn’t get much of a chance to blog when I as running my store and I’ve missed it, my old familiar friend. I’ve missed celebrating the beauty of imagination from all the wonderful artists around me. I promise to start writing properly again soon, not just posting songs to speak for me, but I hope you will be patient with me until then.
Headband: .Enfant Terrible. Forest Flowers RED @Enchantment. The items will be only available through February as an exclusive release to the event and not be resold after.
“I am someone easy to leave
Even easier to forget
a voice, if inaccurate
Again: I’m the one they all run from
diatribes of clouded sun
someone help me find the pause button
I’m too exhausting to be loved
a volatile chemical
best to quarantine and cut off
I’m but thorn in your sweet side
You are better off without me
It’d be best to leave at once
All these tapes in my head swirl around
Keeping my vibe down
All these thoughts in my head aren’t my own
Shoes w/ Leg warmers – fri. – Emma.Flats (Mocha) – The Seasons Story
Top – tulip. Color Block Sweater – Dirt – The Seasons Story