At times I feel like a distant memory in my own mind, my days roll into one another as I watch people carry on with their lives, while I am bitter that what happened stopped my world and not theirs. I forget that I matter, that I still breathe, move, and feel, it’s easier to forget those things, to forget yourself, like some how if you forget you, that they will too. It would be easier that way, because you’re sad and people hate sad people, particularly when you’re sad all the time, an you give false hope when you have good days which makes it that much harder. So you just try to fade away, you stop fighting to have to good days, and you pop a pill and go to sleep, leaving the dishes undone and floors unswept. 12 hours later you wake up grab your stomach and realize nothing has changed, so you cry, “Fuck” is the only thing you can say. People say it takes time, but how much time will people give you, how long before they start talking behind your back, “when will she get over it, it’s been over a month” “I just can’t be around her, shes a downer”. In losing one thing I feel like I might lose everything.
For all the people who have been there for me constantly throughout the past couple months, thank you for standing by me, even when I know it must be hard to.
Top: [AUX] Boho Backless – Fist Pump Hunt(GOING ON NOW!)
Jeans: tulip. Alana Jeans (Slate – MESH)
Picture strand: Trompe Loeil – Stringlights With Photos
I sit thinking of you, conjuring the image of your face in my minds eye. I pick the brush up in my hand, the vibrations of moments stolen resonate through me, and appear on my canvas, moments lost with winters first frost, we could have had a winter wonderland.
My favorite season is fall, I think many people out there share my affinity for the season of cardigans, beautiful colors, and cozy blankets, and one of those people is the creator at L2 StudioLindini2 who just released her new West Lake House. The moment she posted teasers photos of this house to flickr, I was besotted!! The home is detailed with wonderful large windows that allow you to bask in the glory that is autumn, to take in the beautiful rich colors of the trees no matter what room you are in. She always manages to hit the mark with every single on of her homes but this one in particular holds a special place in my heart. So with out further ado, I give you… The (well lived in) West Lake House…