Room For Love

I’ve finally started putting the finishing touches on my home in Sl. It’s been a process trying to find my groove again but I think I am getting there.

I really just wanted to share one of my favorite bits with you guys and thats this part of my room. I am not a terribly cluttery person, I like a clean look with a few messy bits.

And original art, can I just say that I LOVE original art in SL and I squeed when I got the Adore & Abhor art for the Acid Lily Gallery.  The last touch I put on this room was the

wired love heart from Kuro, it was perfect, that  je ne sais quoi that it needed.  I hope I can share more of my home with you soon, like I said, it’s been a process,

but I am starting to really love it! 

Credits:

Kuro – Wired love (black) – Free for 24 Hours

+>A&A<+ Airedine’s Art – Acid Lily

MudHoney Rita Bed – White (tinted)

*MishMish* It’s Aliens – Holding Photo

{vespertine – johanna bookshelf/teal}

[Commoner] Chatterbox / “Couples”

floorplan. guitar bookcase

BALACLAVA!! My Little Ukulele (copy. red.rez)

:CP: Bridge’s Dresser

Trompe Loeil – Stringlights With Photos

:CP: Tegan’s Memories on a String

floorplan. peace marquee light

:CP: Tegan’s Crate Night Table

[ba] atherwood home (Retextured)

I’m Tired

The past two months for me have been exhausting, I shouldn’t be this tired at 28 years old. I should be out being social and happy and shiny and bright, but instead I am sitting at home planning another doctors visit, and wondering what blood tests they will have in store for me. I am luckier than most, my diseases don’t make me hurt, and for that I am grateful, and I just have to keep reminding myself of that. I just have auto-immune diseases, my body is trying to destroy my thyroid, and I have celiacs disease, and apparently now it’s trying to destroy my cells that create insulin for my body. I have blood tests almost every week, and I had an MRI done yesterday which proved to be added stress I didn’t actually need because it only revealed a microadenoma on my pituitary gland that they weren’t sure if it was really a microadenoma or just cell cell debris because it was so damn small, but because they are doctors they err on the side of caution and so I will have another MRI in 6 months to a year. Why am I telling you all this? Because I need to get it out, I need to bitch and moan and be weak for just one day, I need to not be ok with everything that’s happening for a minute  and I need to feel sad because I am so tired of being wonder woman and going through my every day trying to do it all with a smile. I hate that any of this is happening, I hate that I had to give up all my favorite foods, and sugar, and I am so fucking tired of salads I could scream. I just want to be healthy, I want to stop feeling guilty because I feel like I am robbing my husband of a chance to have a happy healthy wife, I want to be the healthy daughter my parents hoped for, I want to be the friend who isn’t always tired and sad on the inside. I want to remember what its like going through an entire day with out having something to cry about. Today I am not ok, and I am not sorry for that, because tomorrow I will be fine again, but today is my day too feel sorry for myself and to feel angry that I am sick, and to be tired of being tired.

Credits:

My comfy sofa bed that makes me feel slightly better: L&K – Spring evening sofa bed (PG) – Available at The Designers Warehouse 

Accent Chair: Zigana -Cupped chair . tulip – FLF

Chalk Board: {vespertine- daily chalkboard/ today version} FLF

Lamp: [*Art Dummy!] vain. (lamp)

Clothes: Top – Mon Tissu – Bottoms – Maitreya

Hair: Lamb- Blue Velvet

House: The Domineaux Effect – The Old Orchard Cottage (resizeable)

Letter Box

I have an empty letter box, I’ll put my heart in it for you.

 

I know it’s been a week(ish) since my last post, I hope you will forgive me, but life has been having

her way with me. I managed to make my way over to Cinema though and just loved this top for Auxiliary, and by love I mean, I am never taking this off.

 

Credits:

Top: [AUX] – Cropped Couple – Zombified – Red (Cinema)

Bottoms: Maitreya Mesh Flare jeans * #2

Hair: Elikatira – Over – brown 08

Skin: Glam Affair

Mail Box: LISP – Snail Mail – Working – Pink (I tinted it)

Punkins: Apple Fall

House: Vespertine